Inside this head of mine...

Name: Leah
Age: 21
Relationship status: Taken
Bay Area Location: Sonoma
Favourite Colour: Pink
Favourite Band/Musician: Static-X, Deftones, and Led Zeppelin
Favourite Book: Hmm... Shattering Glass
Favourite Movie: Ever After, Original Sin, and A Walk to Remember
What do you do for fun?: Go to the local bar here in town and drink with friends. I do yoga to help my stress and smoke bug for pain. ;)

One thing you like in a woman: Honestly, her body, and big boobs. I've never really had a relationship with a woman. But I love looking at a woman's body. I would consdifer myself a man in that aspect...
One thing you like in a man: His personality
Which gender are you more attracted to?: Male

I was reading all the posts yesterday while I was at work, which of course, turned me on. I decided to stop for a while, since I wasnt getting off work for a little while. I was going to go home and fuck Ray real fast before I went to yoga, but I didnt have time. Damn

Because I talked to my mother-in-law yesterday, I was pretty upset at how much I missed her. I went to yoga and tried to calm myself from the inside out. I think yoga is doing wonders for me. Its getting easier easier. The more I go and the more water I drink, I'll be able to do it all soon.

Anyway... While I was at yoga last night, I tried to take everything from the day and release from my mind, body, and soul. Usually, my heart is beating so fast I cant really slow down and breathe. Well last night I forced myself to be calm and forget everything. I actually did it. After every pose you go to your 'sovacina', laying on your back and relaxing before your next pose. While I was laying there I focused on my breathing and pushed everything out of my head. I did it. My heart slowed to its normal pase and I could breathe like normal.

So I pushed myself harder. I felt so good when I came home. I took a shower, we ate dinner and watched some T.V.

We got in bed and watched more T.V. I rolled over to cuddle with Ray and I moved my hand and touched his boxers, and he started laughing at me! "Took you longer then I thought." Hehehehehe

He took off his boxers and I climbed on top. We kissed deeply then he pushed me forward and went down, and started licking me. He inserted his fingers inside and fingered and licked me into orgasm. Mmm...

I came down and sat on his rock hard cock. He took my head in his hands, pushed my hair out of the way, and kissed me. He hasnt kissed me like that in long time. I kept him deep him inside me, just moving my hips slowly and deeply. He kept kissing me. When I was about to cum he held me tighter and kissed me deeper. I came so hard.

Still holding my head he pushed it back just a little and told me to look at him. I did and his eyes were glazed over, eye lids down just a little, looking deep into my soul all with love. He kissed me again and told me to find my spot.

Every time he tells me that, I find it immediatly. Pushing his hips into mine as I push mine down, I came again. I felt him pulsing inside me as he came with me. Eyes closed, face scrunched, and moaning loudly he came inside me.

Breathing heavily, he kissed me one more time. I rolled over and stared into the ceiling. Oh my god that was great! I looked at him and told him we have the best sex! He laughed and smiled, got up and we cleaned up, then passed out.

I got home, dialed and waited for her to answer before I could even think about it.

She answered on the 2nd ring with a voice that was tired.

"Hi Debbie, its Leah."

"Oh hi sweetie! How are you?"

Exhale! Ok she didnt hang up, she even sounded happy, maybe this isnt going to be so bad afterall. Heartbeat slows down and I fell into an old habbit I miss dearly.

My mother-in-law. Who was always a mother to me than an in-law.

She knew the reason I called, and she was glad I did. She told me about her heart attack and all the pain she has been having. My heart ached, I should be there with her.

As we talked, she told me about the divorce and whats going with that. I should get the papers sometime soon, and she is sorry its taken so long. Suddenly I didnt want to divorce her. Of course I want to divorce him, but I dont want to lose her. And she assured me I didnt have to. Relieved to hear my divorce will be going through soon!

We caught up on whats been going on with us. I guess he is doing good with new friend at a new base. Still in Germany, but working on coming back to states due to his medical condition now. My sister-in-law broke up with her boyfriend whom cheated on her... Pattern with those siblings? She is back home and getting ready to go to Paris for school. Good for her, I know how much she likes to travel.

Im to call her next time Im in town to see her. She hopes by then she can give me the divorce papers.

I hung up the phone and sat on the couch staring into space. Then I started to cry. I have not cried one tear since I came home from Germany over him. But Im cying over his mom. She was there for me when he wasnt. The only one, other than my sister, who knew about my abortion. I give her all the credit for me not going insane about that.

Since he always told her about ALL our problems, I soon started confiding in her about him. I had a problem with it at first but he told her so much that I came to realize I could use it for my benefit. She kept me sane while we were together. When he was stuck in his damn video games, I was at her house just hanging out. She owned a duplex, she on one side, me on the other. Needless to say I was always at her house. And she gave the best christmas presents.

I miss her. Terribly. And I didnt realize till I heard her voice. We were so close.

I decided not to go to yoga last night because my yoga clothes werent dry. Ugh. So I stayed home and intended to do laundry. Didnt happen...

I went online to see what was going and started reading posts. Of course, I got so worked up, but I didnt do anything about it. I wanted to be ready for Ray when he got home, basketball game. I dont like being home by myself, I get so bored I dont know what to do, and in turn I get lazy so I dont do what I need/should be doing. So I got offline so I wouldnt be tempted to do anything to myself.

Ray got home and we watched T.V. for a little. I was sitting on the couch and he was getting ready to take a shower. He walked over to me stood on the couch, naked, an got right in front of me, pulled up his balls and smacked them down on my forehead. His ball are huge, they hang down way past his cock, even when he is hard... Hehe :D

I just laughed. He is always smacking my face with his cock and balls. He gets this cute little boy grin on his face. I love it!

So after he is done with that, he takes his shower. I just sit on the couch reading my book with the T.V. on for noise. He gets done and wipes off while I walk into the kitchen to make some popcorn, the come over to me, grabs my arms and tried to push down to suck his cock. I've told him before that I dont like being forced to suck his cock. Thats the only thing I just cant do.

Due to reasons in my past, being forced to suck someone's cock, even though its Ray, it fucks up my head. All the memories came rushing back and I forced them away. When it got too bad I just looked up and saw Ray, and I was ok.

He picked me up off the ground and told me to bend over, better yet go into the bedroom and bend over. he ripped off my shirt and I proceeded into the room. He slamed me down and tore off my shorts and shoved his cock inside me. Mmmm

Holding onto my hips he grbs the lube, pulls out, and shoves him inside my ass. Mmmm!!!! Its been tooooo long since anal, I miss it.

I have to be fucked hard in my ass or I go crazy.

"Tell me how to fuck you!" "Harder!"

I move my hand under my belly to play with myself, as my head gets shoved onto the bed. Thats when I lose it.

Also for reasons in my past, which I'm over, my head cant be shoved into anything. But because of being forced to suck his cock my head went spinning. I tried to block it and focus on his cock inside my ass. Damn but it felt so good!

I just couldnt. He came and I felt him pulsing on my walls and then he collapsed on me. That was when I started tearing up. I went to the bathroom to clean up then into the living room with him.

I could hear HIS voice in my head, when Ray touched me it felt like he was touching me. I saw him standing in our kitchen, sitting on the couch, sittng at our table... I went into the room and cried my eyes out. Ray stayed in the living room, finishing the T.V. show.

I wish he came in the room a little earlier then he did. It felt like HE was in the room with me, sitting on the bed in front of me, starting to touch me. I have come too far for him to come back and fuck my mind like that.

When Ray did come into the room, he came and layed behind me on the bed with his arms around and on me. I immediatly felt better. I just wanted to cry on his shoulder. He told me it was ok, and he cant hurt me anymore, and I believed him. I believe him.

I just wish he was there. I think he thought I wanted to be left alone. Which I kinda did, but I didnt. I thought he knew that. But he doesnt read minds and I didnt tell him I wanted him. But I needed him.

I just want him to hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok. Which he did, but... I dont know, maybe Im just too needy.

On another note, as I was talking to my mom last night, she informed me that my mother-in-law called her yesterday. They really were going to ship my ex to Iraq... Luckily, kinda, he hurt his back and got 2 herniaded* disks in his lower back and now he isnt going. So thats good. My mother-in-law had a heart attack in October. My eyes got a little watery when I heard that. I miss her, I hope she is ok.

I have to call her today on my lunch break. But I guess there is something wrong with my ex's taxes or some shit like that so the divorce can go through... Hmm... You dont need your taxes to file for divorce or for it to even go through... So I have to call her and find out what the hell is going on.

I hope she doesnt hate me. I fucked her son over royaly and Im so very sorry for that. It was never my intention to hurt him so badly. Im done with him though, I couldnt go on any longer pretending I loved him. But his mom... She is a saint. I loved and love her. We got along so great, she treated me like a daughter. Always calling me to go shopping with her, everytime she baked or got a cake or cookies or anything, she always called me. Anytime, ok everytime, me and her son got into an argument, I would go to her she would talk to me and tell me the truth. If I was at fault she told me, if he, most of the time was, was at fault she told him. He always hated me for this... ;) She was always on my side.

My mom says she doesnt hate me and when she talks about me, her voice goes soft. So we'll see how it goes after lunch.

Its nice to be back on here again, I think I missed it more then I thought.

So here are my steamy posts I think everyone is looking forward to reading again.

One thing that LJ does for me is turn me on, a lot. I read back on some posts and new ones, and once again, I got extremely turned on. I decided to not go to yoga class last night because I had a headache. It was Monday, so of course, Monday Night Football and the guys were over.

Our house is so small that we only have room for one couch and a recliner. 2 guys on the couch, R in his recliner and one other guy in a chair from our table. No room for me. I wasnt going to ask his friend C to move, so I went into our room and read for a while, which was what I wanted to do anyway. Well the books I read are the cheesy love story ones, so of course on top of reading LJ today, I got even more hot.

So I started texting R and telling him how hot I was and what I wanted to do him when the guys left. Which in turn got him turned on. He then started telling me what he wanted me to do while I was in there, 8 feet from him and his friends. Get out a toy, get the plug, use the vibe, fill each hole, maybe I should come in there and shove my cock down your throat so you have all holes filled... Mmmm...

On the verge on making myself cum, the guys left and I went to the bathroom. I walked up to R and kissed and followed him into the room. I took off my clothes layed there spread eagle for him. He took off his clothes and got on the bed.

"I want you to put the plug back in." "OK"

He started kissing my nipples and running his tongue just over my skin. I grabed his cock and started stroking. Me on my back and R on his kness to the side of me. I started rubbing the plug on my clit and when he would suck on my nipples and inserted the plug inside my soaking wet pussy.

He held the plug there, got in front of me and started licking my clit. He pushed on the plug so I could feel it deep inside while he teased and sucked on my clit. It wasnt long before I came.

He come up to me, shoved his cock inside me and started fucking me. I came within seconds, and so did he. Laying there, I was so out of breath. We wiped off and went to watch TV.

When it was time for bed, I got horny again. I lay in bed everynight and want to rip off his clothes and fuck him. But he is so tired some nights, I let him sleep. Not last night, and he was exhausted. Laying on the couch cuddling with him, I started touching him and playfuly unzipping his shorts. He started giggling and laughing with me. We got in bed and I couldnt take it anymore. I almost let him sleep, but I wanted more.

So I got more.

I put my hair in a pony tail and got down to business. Started licking and sucking his cock. When he was hard and asking me to ride him, I finally did. He slipped right in... Mmmm...

The one thing that pisses me off, is I focus so much on cumming, I psych myself out and cant cum. He has to stop me and talk me into cumming. But then when I do, oh god it feels good.

We cleaned up, and I passed out so quick, I dont remember anything after.

I dont understand my thinking sometimes...

When Im with R, I want to be sexy and dress sexy and let my huge boobs hang out of my shirts... I actually walk out of the house like this and feel comftorble.

Except, when I get around other people. I pull down my skirts, wish I wore other shoes, why did I wear this shirt?, where are my jeans?...

He makes me feel sexy, but when I get out in public I want to cover up.

Im not comftorble with my body, unless Im with home alone with R. I need to change this...

Also, my bi-curiousness is kicking in. We were at a bar last night and all I could think of was 'where are the hot chicks for me to take home?' There were a couple at the bar, one in particular with great cleavage, but I was with a bunch of his friends and they dont know Im bi.

His friends dont really know me and my sexual side. The majority of them are guys, which Im actually more comftorble with, and the girls kinda keep to their circles.

Im too sexual of a person for some people. Last Friday at our local bar, my second home basicaly, I was making my usual sexual comments and was told to keep them to myself. Being as drunk as I was, I walked to a nearby table, sat, and cried. Pathetic... I know...

I miss my friends. My best friend is just as sexual as I am, if not more. There is only one of his friends that I feel comftorble to be completely myself around, and he isnt around hardly at all. The bartender at the Lodge is a really good friend of mine, the only one I have here, and she is the bartender. I cant go out anywhere with her or do anything with her. She works 2 jobs and lives out of town.

Im lonely. I usually get along fine without any girl friends. But I guess because I dot have any here, Im craving for the female attention.

I need a girl like me, or someone who is ok with my 'sexual bluntness and comments'.

I miss my friends. I miss my best friend.

I dont want my whole world to revolve around R. That is a pattern Im NOT going to create again. But I dont do anything or go anywhere to make friends. And Im so damn shy around people I dont know, its so damn hard for me to make friends.

I have to have my own life, my own friends, my own 'thing'. I have yoga and work. Yoga, ok some potential there... Only thing is I dont talk to anyone. You cant talk during class, and after Im so damn sweaty and tired I just want to go home and take a shower. I work at a car dealership. Im the only woman asides the office manager, who is 40 something. She is awsome, we get along great here at work, but there is nothing outside of work. R's sister is awsome, me and her click really well, again she has her friends and her own thing.

Wheres' MY thing????

I need to get my ass back in school, but cant afford it right now. I need my mom to help with financial aid papers and my stupid fucking 'husband' is no where. My taxes are all fucked up thanks to him, not to mention my credit.

My life is more then I could ask for. But is it too much to ask for friends? Preferably ones who are not offended by my real self.

So I havent been on here in forever!

Completely settled in here in my new town with the boyfriend. Life is better then I expected. I found a job within 2 weeks of officialy moving in with R, and that lasted about 2 months. It was too far for me to drive everyday and I just wasnt 'clicking' with the girls that worked there. Sad, because they were all my age and I could have made some good friends. I still dont have any here... :( I hated it there so I never went to work, they ended up firing me, big shocker.

I took about a week and half and applied at the local car dealership here in town and got the job. I absolutly love it here! Only thing is, Im used to a big town dealership, here its so small I hardly have anything to do. But I guess its ok cause I get paid for surfing the net all day, which again, Im used to. Oh well...

R and I are doing wonderful! His business is picking up again and he is putting a sprinklers in our front yard so we can finaly get grass! Yay! No more wiping the dogs paws off every time they go to the bathroom! I adopted a new kitty from a co-worker who couldnt take care of her anymore. She is a year old and big and furry. Im getting her groomed tomorrow and the vet.

R is officaly divorced, too bad I cant say the same... :( I still cant have a civil conversation, or emails, with my ex. I havent tried in a long time, I need to call my mother-in-law and find out whats going on. Or just file myself, which I think Im going to have to do.

I couldnt figure out why he hasnt sent me the papers to sign yet... Well the Army would cut his paycheck in half. I think Im going to have to put a stop to that. I heard he was getting ready to go over to Iraq. I hope he knows that if something happends to him over there, I get his life insurance... And I know he does not want that. Oh well...

Since being with R I have gained weight... More then I would like and am comftorble with. So R's sister invited me to do a different kind of yoga with her. And now Im addicted. Its Bikram's Yoga... Heated yoga. I love it! Im going tonight!

Ok now I'll get to the sex... GREAT! Ray and I have calmed down quite a bit, but its still all the time. A couple weeks ago we took the dogs to the dog park to play and when all the other people left, he had me spread eagle on the table fucking me in broad daylight. He hasnt tied me up in a while. :( Which I pointed out to him the other night...

I think I want to find a woman to share our bed with... Sitting at home I get a little scared thinking about it, but when we are out at a bar or something I just want to walk up and hit on a girl. Im like a guy in a way... When I look at a woman, I look at her chest and not her face. Oh well...

I think thats it for now...

So I did it.

I pierced my clit.

Last night, Ray and I went to the tattoo shop, talked to with the piercers, went into the room, lifted my skirt, and bared all.

Im so happy I got it. I was laying there, he maked me, the girls were talking and telling me all about it. When it came time, I squeezed Ray's hand, and took a breath. It hurt and it hurt a lot.

I remember thinking that it shouldnt. I thought back when I got my belly button done, that didnt hurt at all. Then when I got my tongue done, that didnt hurt either. So my clit shouldnt hurt. BUT! I forgot that my clit has A LOT more nerves then my belly button and tongue.

He pierced it, and my body twitched so bad, I almost knocked over the chair that my foot was on and kicked one of the girls. After that it wasnt bad. I kept looking at it on the way home and smiling.

My clit was a huge pleasure point for me and I was really wondering about it now. All I have to do now is vrey very lightly touch my hood above the bar and I have shock waves sent through me. I cant wait till I can fuck the shit out of Ray!

I love it!

I was attacked this morning in my car.

Why do people feel the need to get out of their car, throw soda on yours, then try to pull you out of your car? And for what reason? Because you passed them? No... There has to be another reason. People just dont get out of their cars, throw shit on yours then attack you.

YES THEY DO!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was driving to work this morning behind this piece of shit mercedes who was driving 40mph in a 50pmh zone. I finally passed him when we turned and it went into a 2 lane road. When we stopped at a light, swerved around and got next to me. I was behind 3 cars at the light, and he was behind no one. He stopped next to me, got out of his car, threw soda on my windshield, then tried to open my door. Luckily I locked my doors when I saw him throw soda on my car. When he realized I was smart and locked my doors, he then started banging on my window screaming at me.

The guy in the van behind me got out of his car and tried talking to the guy, but he wasnt having any of it.

When the light turned green he got back in his car, and what I thought, he was driving away. Well I was turning right, and I thought he was turning left. I was wrong. As soon as I made the turn, he slammed on his breaks and sped up to get behind me. He then followed me more than 15 mins before I got on the freeway.

I called Ray and talked with him for a while. As soon as I calmed down and was laughing, this other guy decided to tailgate me. I tapped on my breaks to let him know to get off my ass. Well he sped up. It was stopped traffic and I was no going to speed up because I didnt want to hit the car in front of me when we stop again. I had to slam on my breaks anyway, and his tires squeeled to not hit me because he was so close.

He started screaming at me in his car, then shot into the other lane, slammed on his breaks, to cut me off and get in front of me. I tried to get into the other lane to get in front of him cause I knew he was going to fuck with me. Well he shot out in front me and wouldnt let me get in front. I had to swerve over to the other lane so he wouldnt hit me, which I should not have done, I wanted the fucker to hit me, and he then swerved over yet again so I couldnt pass him.

At this point I wasnt trying to pass him, I wanted to get the fuck away him.

If tomorrow wasnt my last day of work, I would NOT be here right now. I would have turned aroud after that first guy, and

Ray's mom went shopping and bought us a whole bunch of movies. So when I got home last night, after my shower and got food, we sat down on the couch and watched one.

After, we got in bed, and he started playing.

He layed me on my stomach then licked my ass for a while then onto my clit. Mmmm... I always cum that way. I lay there as he gets off the bed, takes off his shorts, and pushes himself very slowly inside me. With slow deliberate thrusts, he fucks me. As my head is buried in the sheets, my eyes closed, I moan. He pulls out, grabs the lube, inserts himself again inside me, then pours lube on my ass. He pulls out again, and very slowly, again, inserts himself inside my ass. I didnt even get that feeling I usually get, it was in, and straight to moaning.

My hand found its way to my clit as he thursts so slow inside my ass. "Oh you feel so good baby" "Come on my beautful little girl, tell me how to fuck you" "Harder!" So he goes hard. Slow, deliberate, hard thrusts. Pound, pound, pound. "Harder!" Going harder then ever, deeper then ever, my hand rubbing my clit, I start to feel that Im going to cum. "Oh god! Fuck my ass!!" "Cum for me baby" "Im cumming!" "Oh god! Me too!" Then we came together.

He sits there for a second, catching his breath, then pulls out. I feel his cum seeping down onto my clit. I get up, shower, as he cleans off, then we get back in bed.

We dont fall asleep at first, its pillow talk

This Friday is my last day here at work. I am so excited!

But that also means, Im back in the job market. Ugh

Im looking online, and finding some with potential, but havent heard back from anyone. Most are temp jobs anyway, and No, Im not doing that. Oh well, in coming week, Im going to have a lot of time on my hands, to be physically looking for a job. Hopefully one really close to the house, that way I can come home for some lunch time booty... Hehe

Im also thinking about my clit and nipples pierced. I would have done it Saturday night by the gal who pierced my tiongue, but she wasnt working. I would think that since I cant feel my nipples right now, that it would be the most ideal time to get them pierced. Due to my surgery, I cant feel the lower and up to my nipple of my breast. Which is very normal, every woman I have talked to, along with my doctor, who have had a breast augmentation say its very normal. Im not worried, but it sucks! I would like to feel my now very giant tits dammit!

Oh well... Im just going to have to get her schedule so I can get it done, and soon!

I was pretty over this past weekend. All in all, it was a great weekend!

My company's company picnic was Saturday at a local waterpark. Then right after I had a family gathering for my aunt's birthday. Saturday night Ray and I drove to his cabin in Tahoe for a concert Sunday night.

We woke up kinda late Saturday morning, packed some clothes, and were off to the water park. We got there 40 mins later then we wanted to, but everything time-wise worked out pretty good. I was stressin for a couple minutes...

The waterpark was packed with people, as it is not somewhere you want to go on a Saturday afternoon in July... Waaaaayyy too many people. We went on one giant slide, hung out with friends and co-workers, then left.

The party for my aunt was about 10 mins from the waterpark, convenient, but I wasnt too familiar with that part of town, so we followed my mom over. As soon as we got there, I started drinking. This is the aunt that drinks a lot, not that she is an alcoholic, but she knows how to have a good time, along with my uncle. I would have to say, they are my faveorite aunt and uncle.

My mom went to the store before hand to buy all the alcohol, and I handed her a grocery list as well. My whole family was there and having a great time. We swam and ate yummy BBQ. I was very very drunk. Didnt mean to get so wasted, but I always end up that way.

That night Ray and drove to Tahoe and stayed at his cabin. Because I was so drunk, I passed out right as we got there almost. But certainly not before we ate smores... Yummmm

Sunday we woke around noon and lesurly got dressed, then went to our favorite pizza place to eat lunch. Having just turned 21 this year, I have never gambled before. Other then the poker parties I've been to...

We walked around the casinos a bit, playing slots and cards. Turns out my luck isnt so great. Ray put 20 bucks in a slot machine and I lost it. We walked to a different casino down the road to try our luck there. I didnt do too bad, I got him 2 bucks there! But I have to say, its so much fun! I cant wait to go back! And with more money, thats mine...

It was time for us to start heading to the ampitheater for the concert. We stopped by my car, changed, and were on our way. We waited outside for a while, as we were not the only ones to think ahead and get there early. It was general admission and we wanted good seats. Well we were one of the first hundred, I would say, to get there and ended up right on the railing in front of the stage. This is, I would say, my 2nd favorite band. I was sooo excited to see them.

Ray went to the restrooms and came back with 2 Captain and Cokes for me. Yay! Ray was driving, like always, back to the cabin or back home, so he didnt drink. I became very drunk, very fast. I dont know what it is, but some days I can drink like a fish, but then others, one drink and I'm already really buzzed. Hmm... I dont know...

I forgot my camera in my car, like the retard I am, so I used my phone. Thank god for modern technology, the autograph of the 21st century. When the concert was over, I decided to drive back to the cabin, get as much sleep as I can, then drive to work in the morning.

We got back around 11 or so, and I got in bed. Of course, we made our smores, yummy!!, then both got in bed and watched a movie. I started rubbing his skin, and playing with his chest hair. Oh god do I love his chest hair!!

I made my way down to cock and balls and started gently massaging. It wasnt long before my panties came off, along with his boxers, and I was riding him. He was holding so tight to me I couldnt help but cum. He kept pounding at me as I kept shoving him inside me with my hips. "Good girl, now cum again for me." Thrust thrust, oh oh!! I came again, 'Im cumming!!' "Oh yeah I feel you cumming all over me." He kept going, wanted me to cum again, and as always my body listed to him, and we came together. Grabbing tighly onto his shoulders, my eyes rolled in the back of my head, as we came.

We cleaned up, and fell asleep.

I got to Ray's game right as it ended last night. It was an early game, but because there was so much traffic, I didnt make it on time. But I at least tried. He had to stop by his friend's house on the way back, so he I just went home to cook and do the laundry.

He said to just start the meat, so that was my intention. I got home, started the meat, let the dogs out, swtiched the laundry. The meat was done pretty fast, so I decided to just cook dinner. By the time he got home, it was done, and the laundry was just about finished as well. We ate, watched T.V., he washed the new sheets for our bed, as we just sat on the couch together. It was only 10 when I started falling asleep on the couch. But one our new shows that we like came on, so I tried to stay awake to watch it. Didnt work.

I got in bed and immediatly fell asleep. Driving so much is really starting to take it toll on me. Good thing I only have one more week. But my sleep was soon disrupted due to the demon of my past. It was a slightly worse the usual, but it didnt shake me too much. I woke to Ray's hand on my side thinking it was actually his. I jerked, not wanting him to touch me, afraid of what he would do to me, but I opened my eyes to realize it was Ray. I felt safe again, a little weary still, but OK.

I rolled over to face him and see him comforting smile as he holds me and tells me 'Your ok, your safe now, Im here.' I fall asleep again, not really wanting to, and for a moment its peacefull. But one once again, he returned. I dont usually go too far into my dreams before Ray wakes me up. I cant remember the last time I drempt that he entered me, or even got close. Last night, he got close. And when Ray tried to wake me up, I almost hit him. Oops...

I layed there, with Ray next to me, trying to calm down. I could feel my heart pounding and tried to catch my breath. After a little while, I was calm. I stayed up for a while talking with Ray. Just about everynight, that I dont pass out on him, we stay up, both cuddled in the blankets and intertwined together, just talking. I can never tell you what we talked about, but we talk.

The soft sound of his voice, the smell of him, the feel of his legs with mine, its so smoothing. Im so calm and relaxed. I finally fell asleep, and stayed asleep. The demon, was gone, at least for the rest of last night, to only return another time.

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Ray had a game at 6:30 last night, so I went straight from work there. I got there 10 mins after it started, that was pretty good timing. The usual cheer crowd was there, one of the other girlfriends, his sister (also a girlfriend), a mom, a grandma, and a friend. We all talked, cheered, and hung out. His games are always fun. When the game was over, I followed him home.

We sat and relaxed for a bit, watching tv. When we got hungry, we cooked some food, ate, then took showers. Last night was kind of a milestone for us. Im not going to disclose how, but it was something we both thought we wouldnt ever do to each other. Its actually funny, and could be gross to others, but we had fun with it. I sit a smile and kinda laugh at myself for it.

After we ate, and showered, we sat and watched tv for a while. I soon turned into my bratty self. But not before he has me bent over the couch.

He tells me to kneel on the couch, after some grumbling from me, he has my shorts off and Im kneeling on the couch with his tongue on my clit. Since I was bent over, his nose went inside and I could feel it tickling my entrance. I started to move my hips as he moved his head the opposite way. Mmm.... Right as I was comming he grabbed my hips and started to fuck me with his face. Since his nose was right at my entrance, I felt like his cock was right there teasing me, made me want it more.

He stood up and took of his shorts sits down on the couch. "Get up here and fuck me." So I climb on. As I feel him going deeper inside me, my eyes close and body relax.I was bounding up and down, with his hands firmly on my hips. It wasnt long before I came. He then pushed me up and told me exactly how he wanted me.

"Go into the room and bend over the bed."

I walked straight into the room and bent over the bed. He was right behind me, grabbed the lube and shoved his cock in my ass. We havent done anal in a while, so I wasnt exactly ready for that feeling yet, so I yelped and jumped. When he was all the way inside me, I instantly felt that, oh god, feeling. Hand on my clit, I remembered why I love anal so much. "Tell me how to fuck you baby." "Harder!" "

"Oh god my beautiful little girl, you feel so fucking good!" "Harder!"

Pounding away, my hand rubbing over my clit faster and faster, I came. Everything went black, "Oooohhhh!!!!!! God Yes!!!!" I relaxed my body as he kept fucking me, he was close to cumming himself. I moved my hips into him, trying to make him cum. "Oh god, yes, Im cumming!" "Oh baby!!" I grabbed onto what I could of his leg to push him closer to me. As he came, he stood still. Then collapsed onto me.

We got up and cleaned off. Thats when my bratty side decided to show up.

I came to the realization that Im only bratty to him, although he knew it all along. He says something and turn away and pout, or get all huffy puffy. But its always with a smile on my face. Its because he gives me the fun attention. We wrestle, which is something I love to do and it gets me really horny. He tickles me, he hugs me, he does something to make me laugh, giggle and smile. I love it. We were doing that till about 11 when I finanlly passed out.

I just realised, I didnt post about this.

I had my wax appointment for my bikini wax, but had to cancel due to my going to see my friend in the hospital. Which is fine, she is more important than a wax appointment. But that still left me a little hairy.

Ray and I had been talking of just buying some wax and doing it myself. I thought, what the hell? We went to the store, bought some wax, went home and got waxed. Ray did it for me.

He got evrything he needed, so I layed on the bed, legs spread, waiting for him to rip out my hair. And this is how I am going to be waxed from now on. It didnt hurt at all! And he got to do it, which meant, he fucked me right after also. ;-)

Because it was a couple weeks ago, I cant remember exactly how the night turned out, but it was fun. It was nice to be comftorble enough to lay there and watch him do this. I know has done so much more to me, but this was different. It was better.

Im still silky smooth, but Ray will be the one who waxes me from now on. :-D

My fun started Tuesday night. I went to my house after work and got some things that I needed, and to start bringing my stuff over. I got home around 8 or so. After talking with his friend and finding out what he is doing, Ray and I decide to go to the Lodge for some drinks and to hang out. We get there and hang around the bar for a while, talking and what not. Pam, the bartender, is getting to know us pretty well, and she likes to make me the crazy drinks. We played pool for a while and drank, then decided to go home.

When we get home, of course, I start sucking his cock. Im laying on the bed while he is standing. He then tells me to turn around and bend over, so I do. He shoves his cock inside me, grabs my hips and start thrusting. Its not long before I cum holding onto the sheets. He stops, then starts to paddle my ass. He only uses one for the moment, I think the smiley face one. Then I feel another one on my other cheek at the same time. He was using both paddles on me... hmmm.... "Cum again my sexy little bitch!" He pulls up on mu hips so he enter me, and shoves himself inside, and starts pounding away. It wasnt long before I came again. We cleaned up, and I just passed out.

The parade in town started at 10, and we had intentions on being there at 10. Key word in that sentance was 'had.' We woke up around 10-10:30, I got in the shower and got dressed, then we were on our way. We both had camelbacks on, which are like fanny packs, almost, that holds liquid. Mine had my drink in it, a Watermellon Waterfall, tastes almost exactly like a watermellon Jolly Rancher. Ray's had water. He uses that one for when he goes hunting and didnt want to put alcohol in it. Which was a really good idea, cause we had water all day.

We got to the downtown square, and hardly saw any of the parade. We were looking for his friends, and when we found some, we were looking for more. When everyone was all together, we just hung out. My sister and her boyfriend drove up for the day, and met us there. I was drunk by about noon. :D

It was soooo hot we decided to go back to Ray's, eat, change for the night, then go back out and have some fun. Ray took a shower, then we ate some burgers and watched a movie. When Ray got out of the shower he called me into the room to talk to me about the clothes, "Hey babe, where are my new shorts?"

Uh huh.... I get in there, he is laying on the bed waiting for me. So I leave my sister out in the living room, close the door, walk over to him, and suck his cock. After a little of that, he turns me around and shoves his cock inside me. Im trying to be quiet so my sister and her boyfriend dont hear me. I came twice while in the room. We cleaned up, got dressed, went back out into the living room.

We finished watching the movie, then left again. The majority of his friend were at his friend's C's house, so we went there. I was sobering up a lot, but once I was there, that all changed. His friend were pretty wasted already, so I had some catching up to do. We played pool, hung out, talked, and shot off bottle rockets.

I've never lit any fireworks before, but it looked fun. So his friend lit it for me, and it shot off, buring my finger. But I liked it, so I did another one. This one burning some of my arm hair. But it was fun. I stopped after that one but the guys kept going. I finally ran out of alocohol in my pack, so we left to get more.

When we got back, everyone had split up. So we parked and went to the field to wait for everyone else, and the fireworks. We layed our blanket down and relaxed. After the fireworks, we drove home.